I am a fairly sensitive person when it comes to pain and death. I just about can’t watch someone else hurt – even actors in a movie. I hurt so much for them that I just about burst.
I’ll tell you in another post about the emotions surrounding the cesarean section that I photographed, but I wanted to first share some other hard aspects of being in a bush hospital and VVF repair. Below are four photos, three stories, of times when my emotions were churned.

Yei, age 57, came to the hospital with a VVF like all the other women. Post-op, she, like the other women, had abdominal pain. She complained of this much more than the other women, but what can you do in a hospital where a Tylenol equivalent is about the strongest pain medication they have available? She had just had surgery, so pain was no rarity. After a few days went by, the hospital’s surgeon Dr. Willicore decided to operate for a possible bowel obstruction. Once she was open on the table, they realized that it was in fact a ruptured appendix. They took it out, but later that night, after the surgery, Yei passed away. The surgery had come too late
At a bush hospital, they can’t do imaging like we can here in the States. They can only go on symptoms and feel and educated guesses. Women at her age rarely get appendicitis, and the clearest symptom could have just been VVF surgery related.
Hear Dr. Nathan Webb relate his experience with Yei: About Yei


Amelia, 31, came in with her mother Dororthy, 50. Both of them had VVF’s from complicated pregnancies. Both have incredibly small bone structures which most likely played a big role in their complications. Even though the mother had lost a child and developed a VVF, she didn’t seek the proper care in time when her daughter developed the same complication in pregnancy. They said they couldn’t afford the medical care. Dorothy had a fairly simple VVF, and healed quickly after the surgery. Amelia’s was much more complicated. She experienced a lot of post-op pain, and, as I’ve mentioned, got no great pain killer medication to help her with it. The success rate with the 42 surgeries the team did in Ganta was about 75-85% – which is great for this type of surgery. Amelia was unfortunately part of the 15-25%. She continues to leak.

I got a good couple portraits of one of the older VVF patients, Yah P., on the first day I went out shooting. She was out walking around, pre-surgery, full of hope and happy as an old Liberian woman can be. Her surgery was a bit different than a typical VVF and a sling was inserted to help her continence increase. I few days later, I went to the ward and she was sitting on her bed in tears. She was still leaking urine. Even though the doctors and the nurses tried to explain that her specific surgery took longer to heal, and that it was still too early to know, she would not be consoled. Her hope was gone.
It was quite sad to see. The women come in with such hope. And in a few cases, there is little that the doctors can do. In MOST cases, the women go home dry and overjoyed, but with Yah P., it was still too early to know. I don’t know even know if she finally healed or not, but I know that she was finally consoled somewhat, and we left her smiling.