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Diving Bell and the Butterfly

I recently saw the movie, “Diving Bell and the Butterfly”, which then inspired me to go back and read Jean-Dominique Bauby’s book by the same name. It is quite an inspiring narrative, communicated and written by the blink of a single eye by a man who suffered from Locked-In Syndrome after a massive stroke. Bauby was once the editor-in-chief of Elle Magazine. Francine Prose of Newsday says of the book, “An admirable testament to the unkillable self, to the spirit that insists on itself so vehemently that it ultimately transcends and escapes the prison of the body.”

I know you blog readers of my aren’t into reading so much as you like looking at pictures, but for the sake of variety, I thought I’d share a chapter from the book. Read it if you ever get your hands on a copy. Watch it if you ever get the chance. Highly recommended.

“I’m fading away. Slowly but surely. Like the sailor who watches the home shore gradually disappear, I watch my past recede. My old life still burns within me, but more and more of it is reduced to the ashes of memory.

“Yet since taking up residence in my diving bell, I have made two brief trips to the world of Paris medicine to hear the verdict pronounced on me from the diagnostic heights. On the first occasion, my emotions got the better of me when my ambulance happend to pass the ultra-modern high-rise where I once followed the reprehensible calling of editor-in-chief of a famous women’s magazine. First I recognized the building next door – a sixties antiquity, now scheduled to be demolished, according to the billboard out front. Then I saw our own glass facade, airily reflecting clouds and airplanes. On the sidewalk were a few of those familiar-looking faces that one passes every day for ten years without ever being able to put a name on them. When I thought I glimpsed someone I actually knew, walking behind a woman with her hair in a bun and a burly man in work clothes, I nearly unscrewed my head to see. Perhaps someone had caught sight of my ambulance from our sixteenth floor offices. I shed a few tears as we passed the corner cafe where i used to drop in for a bite. I can weep quite discreetly. People think my eye is watering.

“The second time I went to Paris, four months later, I was unmoved by it. The streets were decked out in summer finery, but for me it was still winter, and what I saw through the ambulance windows was just a movie background. Filmmakers call the process a “rear-screen projection,” with the hero’s car speeding along a road that unrolls behind him on a studio wall. Hitchcock films owe much of their poetry to the use of this process in its early, unperfected stages. My own crossing of Paris left me indifferent. Yet nothing was missing – housewives in flowered dress and youths on roller skates, revving buses, messengers cursing on their scooters. The Place de l’Opera, straight out of a Dufy canvas. The treetops foaming like surf against glass building fronts, wisps of cloud in the sky. Nothing was missing, except me. I was elsewhere.“

YouTube Trailer for the movie: